I’d like to say that I’ve fully embraced it, but when meeting new people, being referred to as the “double national award winner” was a daunting prospect.
Last year, lots of people told me that 2017 would be “my year” – I didn’t believe them for one second! Now six months in, I can see what they were all on about – it’s been such a good year so far! I was nominated and honoured to win Two National MS Society Awards, my grades are stable, I’m spending more and more time with my Best Friend Imy and I am completely and utterly in love with an incredible boy – what more could you wish for?
I’ve reached the point in my life now, where making memories and being happy is at the top of my priority list, which is most definately a positive! I can confidently say I am more myself than I ever have been, and the puzzle pieces are all fitting together. I’m only Fifteen and yet things are becoming clear to me, questions are being answered, and I’m taking opportunities wherever I can.
So as much as my life has always been about it, I’m not sure as to where the “young carer” fits anymore. I feel as though I’ve broken through that stage of my life, and now is about proving to myself that I can do whatever I wish to do – within reason ;)… Now I feel as though my awareness is coming from the “after” story – perhaps telling you all how I’m living, what I’m doing, where I’m going is a way to show others that you don’t have to be a carer forever.
As much as it feels like the end of a huge part of my life, I feel as though I’ve moved on from that label I’ve always talked about. I’m a normal teenager, studying for her GCSE’s (only 9 months until I leave school!) trying to live life for every memory I can get.
So I’m still going to blog… and that’s something I hope I’m always going to be doing, but I can’t prolong that part of my life just for that reason. Change has to happen somewhere and since the awards, which was almost like the icing on the cake, I’ve been thinking a way to make this step in my life. I’m the girl that beat the label, I’m the carer that no longer is a carer – I still help, I still cook and clean, I still help mum when she needs it, but that’s no longer a barrier in my life.
I’m not trying to brag about how fantastic my life is, I’m just trying to get the message out that you don’t have to be held back by the label. I hope you’re all not angry at me – it’s been an incredible year of so many incredible opportunities, that have become a part of me forever! But it’s about time the curtains drew a little. So this is me letting go of the “young carer” that’s been written across my forehead for the past 7 of my 15 years.
So today I’m signing off as the odd pigeon… This isn’t to say that I’m never coming back, I couldn’t bring myself to do that, but as selfish as it may come across, this is my time to live. I want to thank my family, Imy and Kad for loving me every second of every day no matter what. It’s been a long time coming, but I can finally fly free!
“The purpose of this glorious life is not simply to endure it, but to soar, stumble and flourish as you learn to love existence. We were born to live my dear not to merely exist ” BECCA LEE
All my love,
The odd pigeon xx