Ours.

It all happened so quickly, you were here, and then you weren’t.

You filled every room with comfort, peace and your undying love without reason. You built a house of laughter and love from a broken and empty one, and I can’t for one minute understand why you had to go. But I know why you were here. You were ours, mine. You were beautiful and fiery and loving.

I don’t understand this world and maybe I never will, I don’t understand the world’s unwillingness to let me be happy, but you and the love and memories of you are much stronger than the pain this will bring. We are simply heartbroken, and happy you were ours.

Little one, you may never know how loved you were. I keep thinking you’ll come back, I keep hoping you will come back. Even when I saw you peaceful and sleeping, I wanted you to breathe, I wanted you to be safe with us again. But that didn’t happen.

I’d give anything to have to rescue you from that tree again Pudge, fire engine and all, we were talking about me taking you with me when I move out, and growing old, and after an incredibly happy life, we could let you go, when you were old and weak, not now. I didn’t agree to now, it hurts little girl.

I can’t believe you’re gone.

Why couldn’t you stay Bella? Why’d you have to leave me too?

Stay safe baby girl. You’re loved, and always missed.

Sleep well.

BELLA // 21.09.17 – 19.11.18 //

All my love,

Your family xx