Stop dreaming… start doing!

I’ve been having to think a lot lately about the future. Now… this could easily become an extremely sensitive subject to any one of us.

I’ve had to think in depth about my “aspirations”, but all the while taking into account my “circumstances”. It’s not that I’m unsure of what I’d like to do, or what way I’d like to do it… but it’s just I’m fearful that it’s somewhat unrealistic. I need your help on this!

I want to blog, full time, without distraction of school or anything like that. I want to attend events and socialise, talk with others and share experiences. I would like to spread awareness through both digital and verbal formats, submerge myself in what I’m best at. I’ve lived through this for 7 years and it seems unreasonable not to make use of what I know and take enjoyment out of.

But there’s a problem… money? Bills? Mum? What will happen to all of these factors in my life? How will I cope? I don’t want my children to have to live without basics, because of my decisions now.

This reminds me…Joanna, my councillor once told me “do not fret about the decisions you make now, as those decisions are right for you at this time. Whether or not they will be right in the future is irrelevant.” That was good advice – I should take note!

So many of us get anxious about where we need to go – right here, right now, decide this, decide that. What’s the point? Where is stressing and worrying going to get me? The best thing I can do now is write. Establish myself; develop myself; learn, and love what I’m doing. Surely then, with a bit of luck, everything would turn out just right.

I’m so gravely concerned that my children wouldn’t be proud of what I’d done, that my family wouldn’t be able to look at me, because of the paths I’d taken. When will this end? When will I just be free from the constant blur of “reminders” in the back of my head?

What do I want to do in the future? I want to live, I want to travel and take beautiful photos and learn about cultures, learn languages, socialise, meet people. I want to blog and share this, I want to show that even though 5 years ago I thought I would go nowhere… I can go anywhere I want. I can be free and limitless… most of all that I can do what I love.

So why not? Why not aspire to be a blogger? Why not aspire to one day talk and inspire others, children in a crowd, adults in an audience. Teachers, professors, doctors, psychologists, researchers, journalists… I’ll speak to anyone the world throws at me, and I promise they will support the cause of Ms and they will learn about young carers. We will not be the “taboo”, we will be the front pages and the loudspeakers… because we have as much right to that as any other person.

So I’m going to do it. Let’s do this together, let’s make the world proud to be a ms family that cares.

“The things you are passionate about are not random, they are your calling”

“The true sign of intelligence is not knowledge but imagination.” – Albert Einstein.

All my love,

The odd pigeon xx